Rebuilding
Slowly, I started to reform myself. I
started the inevitable building of myself around this body. I reviewed the past
through washed eyes and I wrote letters of forgiveness and apology. And I knew, in the depth of my being, that
God existed.
God being within and part of all things.
God being All. No thing exists without God. God as alive, awake and Life
itself. A no thing and yet, a some thing that lies within the core of every
thing. One is not different from another.
I realized that because of the enclosed
shell of hate, fear and unhappiness I had built around myself I had cut myself off from the human
experience. I was judgmental, critical and arrogant. I couldn’t find a point of
connection with humanity. Humanity was, for
me, a great mistake. I had believed that humans were basically evil.
They lied, betrayed, killed, stole, cheated and were selfish to the core. I had
watched the news as a teenager and felt that the world was about to explode
with human stupidity at any moment. To maintain any level of sanity, I had to
dissassoiate myself from being human.
After my awakening experience, I made a vow
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