Ok, so we all feel great after a meditation and within a controlled environment. What happens to our awareness on the field. When we are placed in situations that have always tested our patience?
Yesterday I went to pick up some groceries from a local co-op. It's a small organic and free trade place. There were two men behind the counter and one woman being served. I glanced at the clock. It took them 7 minutes to attend to me.
The Seven Minutes: during those minutes I experienced what I always experience in these situations. Frustration, anger, intolerance, judgement. I felt my body go hot and cold and tingling under my arms from the sensation of pure injustice.
The Difference: I allowed the sensations. I let them come in. I watched them. I did feel a resistance to them. But I also allowed that. I had a sensation of guilt (how can I feel so negatively after such a beautifully spiritual morning), but I allowed that too. And the body moved and changed and the feelings came and went and I watched and stood firmer in awareness than ever before.
Every judgement that came up I felt my initial resistance to feeling negative emotions, and then I deeply allowed and let it go out of the system. The mind didn't hold on. It truly came and went like clouds passing. But the awareness, or the clarity of the vast sky remained.
And I walked home, and all traces of the 7 minutes of emotion dropped away. There was no energetic imprint. It was gone. There was no repercussion.
No guilt, no 'should', no resistance. Just awareness, accepting and deep watching. One moment at a time.
Adya reminds us that this is not the 'final place' to rest. But it is the foundation. The first part was touching upon Awareness itself. The second part was consciously spending more time with it. The third part is bringing it outside of the controlled environments and meditation practice and into real life situations.
Photo: Tiffany Jones Granollers