Releasing Pain From The Past

After Dreamland 
So this morning I woke in pain. Piercing pain over the right eye and up into the head, my right shoulder had an inflamed pressure point and my tonsils were sore.
Then I immediately remembered that I had a sore throat and tonsillitis frequently when I was a child and that reminded me about chakras and I put on a 5th throat chakra necklace to help balance out the energetics. 

Yoga Therapist 
A friend of mine wrote to me the other day about some personal issues she was dealing with, and in meditation she heard 'Physician Heal Thyself', and I hear her telling me the same thing. 

I'm sure some of you know, but for those who don't, I'm a yoga therapist. That means I use what I have learnt from yoga (and other disciplines) to help people heal in body and mind. If I had to treat myself, as I do right now, then the first and easiest point to start is with childhood memories, chakras, asana practice and affirmations. Then I usually see how we go from there. I've also started practising tapping, and have found it really helpful. Since Lydia's birth I've also dappled in Homeopathy with the help of Kate and Janet, and this is a totally new world to explore. 

A student/friend of mine suggested I start offering these types of consultations via skype, so perhaps in the next few months we'll get that up and started. 

Why Pain? 
In some painful moments like these, I wonder why on earth I'm digging through heaps of old rubbish just to feel rotten again. I mean, what's the point?

And the truth is, I feel it's my duty. As a person who has chosen to try to be as conscious about her life and life choices as possible, it's my responsibility to clear away as much debris from my life as I can. In clearing my debris, I help clear my personal patterns, my families patterns, and the patterns of the world. In my small way, I am changing the possibilities for our future. And because of that, I must go through these clearings. 

Acceptance is Key
The pain is a release. I have been sitting on fear and repression for many years. It has never been allowed to be expressed. And now, in the safety of my adult arms, it can release itself. All of the pent up emotion, all of the fear, all of the struggle jumping out of the recesses of my memory and my cell tissue like the horrors of Pandora's box. But you know what, once they are released, I've still got something left. Hope. This magical word, ready to to inflame creativity, passion and life itself. 

So yes, sometimes it really does get a bit worse before it gets better. But keep your eye on the goal. It is a process. And right now its painful. Sit with it. Honour it. Give it space to be allowed to exist with no judgement. Breathe deeply. Be gentle and kind to yourself. We can do this. 

Photo Credits Tiffany Jones

Free Online Chakra Course

Hello everyone,

I'd like to invite you to a free online course about chakras.

We actually started three weeks ago, but I honestly forgot to invite readers from patheya. Sorry! (Brian, thanks for the reminder!)

The course will continue for another 9 or 10 months.

It's an introductory course and you don't need any prior knowledge.  We begin with a basic introduction to the course and what chakras are, and then we spend about a month on each chakra.

The aim is to increase awareness of what the chakras are and how they can enhance our life.

At the moment we have about 20 or so people in the course. At the end of the course, I will create a small e book for people to use at their own pace. No personal details from students will be used.

You can go at your own pace and there are only two or so activities/readings a week.

The course is held on google groups and you need to be invited to participate. If you are interested, send me an e mail with your email address and I’ll invite you. 

Thanks and sorry for neglecting you!

Photos: Tiffany Jones 

Energy Centres in the Body

Hello Everyone,

I've recently been writing about the chakras in the human body. Kind of filing information for myself and you.

If you'd like to learn a bit more about them, take a look here -

Chakra Basics - beginners questions answered.

Root Chakra - about grounding, your tribe and belonging.

Sacral Chakra - about creativity, sexuality.

Solar Plexus Chakra - about feelings of self esteem and control.

Heart Chakra - about love and forgiveness.

Throat Chakra - about communication and will power.

Brow Chakra - mental abilities and vision.

Chakra Reading List - want something more to read?

Heart Chakra - the Centre Piece

The mother’s energy, rising up from the ground. Embodied in the earth, the rivers, the trees, rocks and sacred spaces.

The father’s energy sweeping down in the form of white piercing light, air, in the consciousness of all matter.

The mother comes from the root chakra. She winds up, through the body.

The father pierces from the crown, as sharp as the most prized sword.

They converge, the two energies – in the centre piece, the heart.

When the male and female come together, when they meet, within the human body – we have the child.

The child, the creation, the manifest of the one and the other is embodied within the human heart centre.

As above, so below. The point on the horizon, the meeting point between the two is your heart.

My Daily Practice

My priority for now

All of my studies and practices at the moment are involved in attuning my self to opening up communication to the world that is.

That is, I’m working on listening. Listening to the people around me, listening to the noises from the trees and wind, listening to the pitch of voice, listening to my heart beat, listening to myself.

I’m pausing to feel the swells and tightening of the chakra system in action. I’m noticing when my heart starts to race, when my third eye starts to throb, when my solar plexus pains. I’m learning how my body is telling me something… either my own fears, or information about others, or guidance on how to deal with a situation.

I’m cleaning the debris out of my mind and body. I’m letting the mask of the afraid Tiffany slip – and in its place, I’m letting the soft skin of the inner me make her acquaintance with the world.
I’m looking at my fears, I’m shaking of my jealousies, my anger, my shadow. I’m looking at my arrogance and inability to live the life I say I want to.

Vulnerable I feel. Sensitive I feel. Alive I feel – real I feel. Awake I feel. Hope I breathe. Freedom I see.

All my love

Where do you encounter god?

Part I

Here, now
In light and shadow
In my breath
In my sight
In my heart
In my veins
In my bowels
In my mouth
In my softness
In my skin

In the awareness of every cell
In the formation before my eyes
In my nose – in the air
In the tingle across my lips
In my hair – to the very ends
In my teeth and in my arm pits
In the softness of a smile
In the pulse of my blood
In the burning of my feet
In my throat and in my speech
In the gaps between my teeth
In my scalp and eye brows
In my nostrils and tongue
In the liquid of my body

In the movement of divinity
In everything I see.


Part II

In the throbbing of my spine
The tightening of my softness

In the girdle of my middle
warming the golden egg,

In the fluttering of my centre
The ring of protection,

In the opening of my heart
The breaking of its covers,

In the opening of my throat
The sliding in of air,

In the diamond of my forehead
The blessings of my vision,

In the opening of my crown
The pillar of light in my centre.


Part III

The merging of mind, body, spirit and soul.
The integrating of the self.

The open expression of living your highest truth.
To be one with god.

To embrace god
To breathe god
To let every cell of my body be pierced in white.

To be swept in away,
To be whole,
To be awake,
To see,
To smile.

I encounter god in the sword of light that is sheathed along my spine.

My future studies

The final thing I was ‘guided’ with – was an understanding of what I was studying and where I should focus my studies –

I could use my understanding of yoga poses and different qigong poses, linked with my developing understanding of chakras to clear blockages for other people – including myself,… J

While I was in meditation – or communion with my angel on my left shoulder – I guess I won’t say that to everyone since it sounds a bit weird, even to me …
It sent me into a state of induced chi flow – like I’ve experienced before. And I could feel and experience the blockages.

I’ve been told to learn more about it. Simple and satisfying.

October 2008 - my angel

October 2008

What a month!

So, I thought to myself, last night – maybe the angel is waiting – and indeed it was. I surrounded myself with white light – I did a protection prayer (only for my highest good is allowed to enter) – and I invited the angel in with me.

In it came and settled on my left side. It was still there this morning, and is still there now.

I asked the advice from some friends from Historum – and I painted what he looked like.

I can’t see him now, I can only feel it.

I asked what it was I was suppose to know – and it gave me my awareness of my sacral chakra… and heightened awareness of my solar plexus….

It’s the ‘dead’ body of me – I understood things incredibly simply – suddenly….

The three base chakras – the problems I’ve been having – are in the three base chakras I’ve always had very limited feeling or no feeling for – The top four are no trouble = they throb and move and are ‘real’ to me. The solar plexus comes and goes – but the base two have always been ‘dead’ to me… in some way.

My angel gave me awareness of the sacral – and this morning - !!!! I awoke and had awareness of the base – the root chakra!

So happy I am – so complete I feel to begin this new life – this new month – this new year of my 37th year – in such completeness…

Thank you thank you thanks to you….

The base went right down into my buttocks and is a big circular disk – and heavy – I didn’t see it or feel it before….

Amazingly – the base chakra is the one that has been holding me back – and my awareness of it has helped so much to release the problems I had – fear, insecurity, lack of a home….

I heard – ‘don’t look outside for your home – look inside’ – and there was the light of creation within.. and I felt so glad to be finally rid of my grasping….and to see the light within…..

Its really a miracle. It feels like a miracle…

Then it flashed to me – the reason I had such pain in my lower back when I was pregnant – the lack of security I felt – and I have passed onto my son. He’s fearful and sensitive. He has no root system – and this I can lovingly help him with…
My own lack of root system was based on my childhood – of not feeling wanted – and not feeling like I had a base – and was repeated in all of my relationships… its amazing to see the thread of it all within all of my adult relationships..

It nearly destroyed my current partner and I – but now – with his love and support – we will create a new future – where my security is not based on his love, or his presence – but on my love, my self love, my love of god…. The all .. the one…

Thank god! For such a moment….

I remember also – that I was hit by a car when I was 16 – and I crushed my lower back – I had no idea that I was creating the events myself with my lack of roots- I was living with my grandmother – I was ‘put’ there because my father and step-mother said they didn’t want me anymore – that they wanted to be together, for themselves… now, I have gone through the forgiveness of this – I have released any pain I felt from it, I have forgiven them and myself – and no, I don’t condone their actions – but I understand and I forgive them whole heartedly…. But it didn’t solve the problem of not feeling rooted…

As soon as I accepted myself – as soon as I said – I belong to god – I invite you in and I am part of you as you are part of me – as soon as I let it be…. The weight fell off of me… and life is changing daily, by the hour….

I am ready for it. I am ready for it.. I am ready for change and I am ready to love and be loved.

I am told to be an empty, clean, sparkling crystal chalice. … its more like a martini glass!! J , and this I am.. cleaning my self, my thoughts, my heart, my energy, my day to day relationships…

Now – I am a full energy system. I function as a whole… I invite you to follow me.

Healing the Earth Visualisation Meditation

Edmund Harold’s Meditation – as I remember it from when I read it in 1995.

Sit in your comfortable meditation position.

Relaxed body.

Begin by moving through each part of your body, and releasing the physical tensions. Then send your mind outwards, so that you feel the wholeness of your frame, encompassing everything. Allow yourself to drift upwards. Keep floating up until you can see the planet beneath you. Imagine that above the planet was a bright violet flame. Direct the flame to your base chakra – move up through each chakra, clearing, cleansing and balancing- let them spin gloriously.

Once you move to the top, move back down again. Then let the violet flame encompass your entire body. See yourself as a whole, vibrating with violet flame.

See the earth below you, and allow the white light of divinity to shoot through your third eye, or from your heart, or from the top of your head, and send it towards the earth.

Bath the earth with the clean, pure, strong and vibrant healing energy coursing through you.
Continue for as long as you feel necessary. You may direct the light to areas of the earth you feel need it in particular.

When you are ready, come back to your body and awaken in the way you do for deep guided meditation.

Earth Healing

During meditation this morning (I start, usually, after being awake for 5 to 10 minutes), as I started to clear my body and start to drain any left over tension – I’ve been feeling particularly connected to the universal spirit for the past two days.

I’d given myself, and my life, over to spiritual service. I made a pact, a ‘sacred contract’ between me and the spirit I feel around me, to honour and listen and live by the spiritual guidance I was receiving. Since then, my understanding and experiencing of the spirit of creation, the energy of the universe is manifesting itself constantly.

This morning, it showed me a vision, of my hands surrounding a ball – the ball was the earth. All of the qigong exercises I had done, where we hold a chi ball, it hinted, could be done, as healing exercises for the earth. That my ‘awakening’ was a positive for me, but now I was in a position to give something back to the world – the planet if you will.

I remembered how years ago I had read second sight by Edmund Harold. In it, he also suggested a meditation of chakra clearing, earth meditation and self meditation. I began to remember the details of the meditation, and I sat with white light turned on the world. The world was before me – I started to see other people, doing the same, all across the world – some of us in groups, in circles, circles within circles and I realised that love, the powerful energy of love and healing, if enough of us are awakened, would save and heal this planet.

I was sure of it – I felt it as a ‘truth’. Fear left me – and more than ever, I feel the ‘sureness’ of the permeance and creativity of this force, energy.

Chakra Post

I published an article on suite101, on chakras, if you're interested. Its the first in a series. Take a look here.

For more on

Root Chakra

Sacral Chakra

Solar Plexus Chakra

Heart Chakra

Throat Chakra

Brow Chakra

Meditate online

I just saw an online meditation by Caroline Myss.
Give it a go - I did - and I will tomorrow, too -

Chakra Reading List

I recently wrote an article about chakras. If you are interested in a reading list to do a bit of your own research, take a look here.