Monday, November 24, 2008

Gold Tara as Dancing Shiva

As I was watching the Golden Tara - she became Lord Shiva dancing.
'I am all'
And - funnily enough - the name for this being is 'Nataraja' - here are a few links from Wiki
and from Lotus Sculpture.
Did I tell you that 'tara' gave me a white egg in my solar plexus on the 22nd of November... When I looked up the symbolism of white eggs - I came across the pagan goddess ostara...
They say its three times lucky. What more stamping and thunder signs do I need to believe?
Well - I did a 'soul mate' meditation - and it revealed itself to be my soul mate - then what? All the pressure I've been feeling around my heart chakra - the squeezing and pressure is my soul mate trying to get my attention...
I posted a variation of this in the spiritualblessings forum -
I did a meditation on soul mates - and - it felt so real. I feel that for some reason - for my development - my soul mate did not reincarnate with me - that it stayed in the spirit world to help me in this life.
As soon as I met the soul - it was just like the visions I've been having of the Gold Tara - it 'merged' with me, danced around me - my heart almost died from the pressure - and it 'was' me - in some way - and then I asked 'why' did it say behind - and it was to help me in this life - to push me, because I needed it. It gave me a white rose - and a cloak of protection (love).
And I think wow - I've always felt so alone - and yet I realise that I'm here to learn independance - and now - I see/feel that she's 'there' for me any time - that I'm not alone - that we are one - and it is with her I can share my true self with.
Ostara and Snakes Just as Tara and Nataraja are also associated with snakes - birth, renewal, spring, balance, the ability to live in the dark and in the light - just wow...

Sunday, November 23, 2008

Energy from trees

My family here – my parents, were about to cut down a palm tree. They don’t want them there. I have an instinctive dislike of this chopping – and since I have awakened my sensitivity – its harder to deal with – I feel almost like its murder.

So, I turned my face up and asked my guides – who ever would like to answer me, what could I do to help?

They said – and yes it sounds crazy, and yes I did it… ‘go and put your hands on the tree. Explain what is going to happen – give it a change to shift its energy and with draw itself.’

I went and stood by the tree – and did what I was told. Nothing happened – that I felt – and after a minute or so – I suddenly felt this large pulse of energy come streaming into my hands and forearms. I directed the tree to send it down into the earth – to finish its draining.

At least I felt better. The tree is no longer there…

Saturday, November 22, 2008

Meditations for Negative Thoughts

Meditation for souls as one – in action

This meditation came out of ‘nowhere’ – one of those moments when I sent up a prayer to ‘anyone’ who could help me with the moment.

A friend of the family came over and refused to eat with us because there was no meat in the house – and I felt a surge of ‘what?’ and incomprehension, and immediately I sent up my prayer before I started to criticism him internally, let a lone externally.

‘Feel your centre.’ (for me it’s a golden light being)

‘Now imagine that light in him – and indeed, in everyone in the room. Activate it in each of the people present. Imagine that you link this soul light in yourself, and in each of them, with arcs of gold towards them – from the top and the bottom of the light. See it as a circle connecting the two of you – connect to everyone – see the gold light in your minds eye when you talk with them. The rest is illusion. More than that – if you believe in their illusion – then you help create it.’

Wow – so I did what the meditation said – and I the angst fell away. I felt one – and loved him – and could feel us all joining together – all the lights in all the people… and you know what?

He ate with us anyway.

Hope this may help you also.


Meditation to help with Negative thoughts

This one came to me when I asked specifically for help with suspending negative thinking patterns. I asked my guides to help me deal with them, and other thoughts.

A golden net sinks down around the brain. The net ‘catches’ the brain – and gently lifts upwards – the brain feels lighter, disconnected to the body – unreal – and this is one of the techniques that has helped me the most – the brain still works – but it is a tool for me – not an instrument of torture.
Blessings and I hope you may be helped also with this meditation.

Gold Tara

I've been having images of a Golden Tara come to me in meditation.

I think to myself, ahh, but it is the green tara, but dressed in gold - but no - it is the Gold Tara.
So I listen and trust my self rather than the tradition.
I read on one website that the Gold Tara is real - but I haven't seen it anywhere else.
She is like the green tara, but with less paraphenalia... She has less about her - she is purely shining gold - pure wisdom - pure love - without trappings. Her body is slim and elegant - similar to the picture I posted above, but not the same - no large head dress.

The first time I had conscious contact with the green tara was in Dharamsala- she just struck me as love and compassion - and I bought one of her painting to remind myself of her, i bought a book on female deities - and feel connected to her - however, the gold tara is now insisting on her presence - so I will follow my instinct.

Friday, November 21, 2008

Be as Still as the Lake


I have recently begun doing meditation with my guides and learning to contact them – and I feel that they are not ‘mine’ at all – but everyone’s…

The most powerful impression I’ve had so far was after visiting a temple of meditation – and a man came to me – he seemed from India – but not – and it was before the Vedic stage – hence my new interest in pre Vedic religion – and he was kind and warm eyed – and I don’t know his name.
I asked for advice – and he showed me a lake. He said thoughts were like ripplets upon the lake – and my aim was to have the lake as still as can be.

Now I have heard this advice, even read it many times before. Possibly I’ve even used the metaphor myself, however, it was nothing like seeing it like this.

I understood it within my body. I saw the thoughts rise up, I saw that I could not see clearly if I was up set, or ruled by emotion, or thinking at all – as soon as my thinking suspends, then I am still, calm – and a mirror for what is – and from there – there is the ability to see clearly, to be a clean channel for divine light – and what ever else is in store for us on the other side.

But until I am a still lake – …

That’s my aim at the moment – to be. To be one – with no disturbance… As soon as I begin this ‘aim’ – I notice the effect everything has upon me… The coffee races my heart – the television hurts my head – negativity from people around me pound my walls – and then I see why there are so many restrictions around meditation.

They are in effect guidelines, helping tools – but we make them ‘rules’ to die for.
The purpose is stillness – at this stage – and how you get there is your business. Its not for others to insist any way. You need to feel it for yourself. Or go to a sensitive teacher who can help you sincerely.

The other things I had a little tantrum about – while I was meeting with a group of guides – was that sometimes I feel like I don’t have proof. I don’t feel sure of myself. Nothing is manifest – and I felt a little rebuke…

They reminded me of another moment in time – when I was in deep despair – and I asked please, please let me know I’m not crazy – help me to feel you somewhere or see you…. And the answer was a ‘squeeze’ around my heart. It squeezed until I was quite sure – since then I’ve been able to feel my heart at all times. I can feel its beat all the time – as a reminder of my existence and connection to the pulsating energy of the universe.

So – they reminded me of this experience – and if one can blush in the spirit world, then I did – then they reminded me of how sensitive my body was – how I could feel a myriad of movements – and how, with meditation and training – I would be able to feel and live the energy lines of the body and help them to function. I just had to study and be patient and the skills would reveal themselves. So then…

Be as still as a lake…

Wednesday, November 19, 2008



After my ‘healing’ session with my friend – I go into a moment of ‘tell me what you want’ and I will just listen.

Today – at the very end of my session – I asked, ‘who is here today, and is there something I need to know?’

The name ‘Lydia’ came to me – and she said she lets me see beauty. She lets me see the colours so intensely, and when I pause to see the rain drops from the green fronds out side, she is with me, encouraging me to view the world of beauty.

I checked what ‘Lydia’ means – on the internet – and lo and behold – ‘beauty and beautiful’ – and the website that came to me also is Labyrinthina. It’s a wonderful story, and full of so much information to share from a mystical woman. Love!

My Chalice is the Holy Grail?

I found this about the Holy Grail - interesting considering my chalice motiff.

"Divine Humanity believes that the Holy Grail, the vessel of light, is a metaphor and a symbol of our hearts and the spark of God within us.

The Holy Grail is our divine treasure.

The greatest wealth is always found within us and allows us, with each breath of our soul, to experience divine love and happiness. This miraculous treasure is transcendent, found in all cultures and ages.

It’s universal symbol is a cauldron, a magical bowl, a cornucopia or horn of plenty, but perhaps most familiar to us as the fabulous Holy Grail. It is this legend of legends that we carry within us.

Mythically, the Holy Grail holds the divine blood of Christ and in our journey it also holds our divine blood. It holds the divine blood that courses through our very own bodies and the divine light, which is our own soul. This is true because we are the divine children of Father in Heaven and Mother on Earth and each one of us has their Holy Blood and Holy Heart within us."

Chew your food girl!

Entering into a new state of awareness, every day – is funny, challenging and odd. In Entering the Castle, Caroline Myss poses the question ‘what are you willing to change in your life? If God comes knocking, do you shut the door because you’re happy as you are and are afraid of the changes that may occur?’
Of course, being an eager beaver, my mind went into hysterical affirmations that I’d do anything… just ANYTHING that comes to me. Those anythings could be donating what little money I had to a charity, could be giving up a weekend for ‘cleaning’ or helping somewhere…

But what if your inner guidance just says ‘chew your food?’

It wasn’t quite what I was expecting…

So, there I am, eating my toast. I was walking with my food into the dining room and chewing and swallowing and I felt the little lump in my throat as I swallowed - and actually, it hurts sometimes, but I don’t listen – and today, I listened…

Take smaller bites and chew it.

So I took a half sized bite, chewed it, and still it hurt to swallow.

I took a smaller bite again, chewed it, and slowly, without having to have the awkward ‘swallow’ I usually contend with, it just kind of slide down my throat without a complaint.

‘Really?’ I thought to myself, ‘I have to eat such small bits, and chew so much?’

Suddenly there was a gentle smile and the words ‘it gives you time to appreciate the food, appreciate where the food comes from, give thanks with each mouthful. A lot of work has gone into each piece of food you mindlessly consume. Go slow, be thankful.’So – now I have a different lump in my throat – and go slow I will.

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

The Gospel of Thomas

I was highly inspired by some quotations I read yesterday in gospels not included in the New Testament.

I’ve never read them before. If you know of other gospels I should read, post them, thanks...

The ones here are from the
Gospel of Thomas

"Jesus said, "Those who seek should not stop seeking until they find. When they find, they will be disturbed. When they are disturbed, they will marvel, and will reign over all. [And after they have reigned they will rest.]"

"Jesus said, "If your leaders say to you, 'Look, the (Father's) kingdom is in the sky,' then the birds of the sky will precede you. If they say to you, 'It is in the sea,' then the fish will precede you. Rather, the (Father's) kingdom is within you and it is outside you.
When you know yourselves, then you will be known, and you will understand that you are children of the living Father. But if you do not know yourselves, then you live in poverty, and you are the poverty."

"Jesus said to them, "When you make the two into one, and when you make the inner like the outer and the outer like the inner, and the upper like the lower, and when you make male and female into a single one, so that the male will not be male nor the female be female, when you make eyes in place of an eye, a hand in place of a hand, a foot in place of a foot, an image in place of an image, then you will enter [the kingdom]."

50. Jesus said, "If they say to you, 'Where have you come from?' say to them, 'We have come from the light, from the place where the light came into being by itself, established [itself], and appeared in their image.'

77. Jesus said, "I am the light that is over all things. I am all: from me all came forth, and to me all attained.
Split a piece of wood; I am there.
Lift up the stone, and you will find me there."

113. His disciples said to him, "When will the kingdom come?"
"It will not come by watching for it. It will not be said, 'Look, here!' or 'Look, there!' Rather, the Father's kingdom is spread out upon the earth, and people don't see it."

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

About Me

I am: half there

I think: as little as possible

I know: nothing

I have: too much

I wish: to see clearly

I hate: my attitude to 'problems'

I miss: nothing

I fear: the crazy woman I seem to be becoming

I hear: screaming children

I smell: not much

I crave: surrender

I search: for me

I wonder: if I'll have that baby girl I dreamt of.

I regret: being such a hothead sometimes...

I love: light

I ache: in my solar plexus - my 'self esteem', my 'power' is transforming and insubstantial

I am not: I am not

I believe: in transformations

I dance: everywhere

I sing: softly, so it sounds better

I cry: from happiness

I fight: me

I win: a little more every day

I lose: when I give into my ego - accusing, superior, arrogant

I never: never say never

I always: try to listen to my inner voice and act on it

I confuse: myself all the time..

I listen: carefully

I can usually be found: looking a bit distracted

I am scared: of some changes... what do they mean for me?

I need: more trust

I am happy about: my mother's 'self help' course

I imagine: too much...

The list I found on
Dove's Blog. (copy and paste your own if you wish!)

I am:

I think:

I know:

I have:

I wish:

I hate:

I miss:

I fear:

I hear:

I smell:

I crave:

I search:

I wonder:

I regret:

I love:

I ache:

I am not:

I believe:

I dance:

I sing:

I cry:

I fight:

I win:

I lose:

I never:

I always:

I confuse:

I listen:

I can usually be found:

I am scared:

I need:

I am happy about:

I imagine:

I tag:

Saturday, November 8, 2008

Want to be happier?

1) speak less
2) listen more
3) stop going over and over things – just let it go – release it, forgive it.. let it go – analysing just makes the problem bigger and bigger –worrying over a small bump turns it into a mountain..

My Daily Practice

My priority for now

All of my studies and practices at the moment are involved in attuning my self to opening up communication to the world that is.

That is, I’m working on listening. Listening to the people around me, listening to the noises from the trees and wind, listening to the pitch of voice, listening to my heart beat, listening to myself.

I’m pausing to feel the swells and tightening of the chakra system in action. I’m noticing when my heart starts to race, when my third eye starts to throb, when my solar plexus pains. I’m learning how my body is telling me something… either my own fears, or information about others, or guidance on how to deal with a situation.

I’m cleaning the debris out of my mind and body. I’m letting the mask of the afraid Tiffany slip – and in its place, I’m letting the soft skin of the inner me make her acquaintance with the world.
I’m looking at my fears, I’m shaking of my jealousies, my anger, my shadow. I’m looking at my arrogance and inability to live the life I say I want to.

Vulnerable I feel. Sensitive I feel. Alive I feel – real I feel. Awake I feel. Hope I breathe. Freedom I see.

All my love

Friday, November 7, 2008

Why do we teach our children lies?

Why do we teach our children some lies?

I was teaching my son Jett, 9, about months of the year and seasons. A friend complained that what I was saying wasn't really true...

We live in Australia, and we have lived in Norway – so the seasons are varied in both…. So how to teach seasons are different….. there is no rule?

It was a moment of confusion for me, strange as it may seem, because I taught, as a child, that there were four seasons – and the four seasons each had three months to play their part in the full year.

We teach our children little lies because we don’t bother to question what we’ve been told. Not always.. I’m sure you can think of times when you realised a ‘truth’ and it changed how you spoke about and referred to the subject.

That happened to me with sunsets. Once I realised that it wasn’t the sunset that created the beautiful light, but actually, the earth turning… I thought, well, why don’t we say ‘earth turns’ instead of ‘sun sets’…. Its just a reminder that we think we are the centre of the universe.. ego centric.. earthcentric… and nothing could be further than the truth….

So – we tell little fibs because society accepts them as ‘truths’ – and if I keep pointing out to people that it’s the earth turning, not the sun setting.. then they will be irritated with my pedantic nature and probably not want to be in my company for long…

So – we tell them for society’s sake…

And the months of the year?

English heritage told us what the four seasons were; April as the cruellest month and June brides are part of our (Australian) understanding of life… but its not the truth..

When we were in the Northern Territory, we found out that the traditional caretakers of the land acknowledged 6 seasons, depending on the cycle of life around them- including rain fall and the flowering of plants. It’s a bit more realistic to follow these patterns, if we were close to nature. But today, to say to someone, I will meet you at the first big rain, when the giant figs are bursting with flower doesn’t seem quite as sane as September the 4th at 4pm.

We teach our kids lies cause some lies are convenient and make our life a bit easier. I’m not saying it’s the right way to go for the future.. we need to ‘challenge everything’ – as the saying goes, and keep our feet rooted firmly in a nice balance of truth and humour… what say you?

Thursday, November 6, 2008

On Being Human is Now On Being One With Life

Hi everyone!
Hello Tiffany!


So - what happened in October?
It was my birthday - I turned 37....

I feel fantastic - and, happily, magically and most importantly - I've embraced my life...

in some way, this is what I wanted, this year, without knowing it.. I've been away from my 'normal life' for a year... to take a year to be me - to figure out what it is that I'm suppose to do - to learn - instead of teach... and bang...

I took a step off the ledge... and now - I'm on the other side ---

of belief of faith of trust of life

The world is new - and yes, a new day is here....

Love, life, flow, tao, love, spirit, oneness, truth, beauty, love, here, now, life, cells, light, bright, ever, truth, love, god, creator, source, all, one, being....

Love to you all -


Wednesday, November 5, 2008

Be the Burning Bush

Be the Burning Bush

I called your name,
And You answered.

Blaze forth
With My light.

Burn bright,
As One.

Radiate my love,
Be as One.

Lord, I said.
Yes, You said.

Do not tell
Do not convert-
The story is old,
its been heard.

Now, just be.
Burn with me.

Be, the burning bush
Be, the flame tree.

Your shining star
Your guiding light,
Let it know no prejudice
Let it know no fight.

Do not fade
From mere masquerade.

Let not illusion
Dim your light.

Shine forth with Me
Burn ever bright.